Well, I am a descendant of the Norse and Germanic people, in part. In truth, I am a European mutt. However, a good chunk of that is German, descended from the Norse. So, for all intents and purposes, I am a Viking. Why do I bring this up? I bring it up because I need conquest. Now, I know some might say that needing conquest is just a man thing, but I am going to say it is a Viking thing today. Why? Because it sounds cool, okay?
I am a Viking!
See? I strive in life to conquer and experience new things. I strive to succeed. I fight for it. When I fail, and I do fail, it hurts so much that the fight in me goes into a Barbarian-esque rage. I lash out and get angry and petulant. Then the fight center in my brain calls for a new conquest. I was given a challenge with NaNoWriMo and I conquered it. I was given the challenge to get my book published, and I conquered it.
The problem I face now is the inner viking in me is directionless. I am still working on finishing books and I still love writing, but there is no longer the “I’ve never done this I must conquer this” mentality. That is good in a way, it means that what I do now will be scrutinized and scoured for imperfections. Every book after the last will be better and more refined, but there will never again be that “I have conquered this!” feeling.
I am a Viking!
I must have conquest, I must have victory, but what is a warrior without a foe to fight? A poor friend, an apologetic husband, an ogre. Yes, I need to fight so I pick them, which frustrates my wife to no end I am sure. So what am I to do?
I don’t know. I’ve not often been in a place in my life where I feel there is not another fight around the corner for me to tackle. Writing a book was the biggest conquest I always avoided. Once I conquered it, I realized it was my life-long goal to write a book. I’ll write more, I will have that moment when I’ve written a series of books and I will revel in that victory, but what do I do in the meantime? I need conquest, I need a victory. Food for thought. Until next time folks.
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